In a Whole Other Dimension

Well I happen to have an hour to relax a little before I start getting ready for my girlfriends 50th birthday party, which is also a '60's & 70's Revival Party'. I've been busy helping decorate and getting all my gear ready. Another friend who lives in the same complex, and who did my make-up for my photo shoot, is doing my face again for tonight. I'm going as a black version of Twiggy, from the 60's. And yes Em and Frankie, I will have photos.

I'm quite looking forward to dressing up. It's not often I get the chance to do something a little different. I always did want to be a hippie and wish I'd been born earlier. Of course, I look nothing like Twiggy, and I'm not as skinny. But what the hey...I had this vision in my head of her, but it doesn't quite match her pics. I was mainly thinking of knee high boots, short dresses and thick, dark eye make-up.



This is more what I had in mind...except with an afro (and wish I had longer legs), and my boots are black and I'm going silver and black. Actually...I'm going to look nothing like these women...ha..ha..ha...

Okay...the whole other dimension.

I'm just in a real weird place right now. It's like an out-of-body experience. I'm going through all the motions that I've set myself up for. Nutrition is great, exercise is starting to pick up, and there's lots of goings-on, and things are in the pipeline. But it's like I'm physically here, but I'm not feeling my life with the kind of depth I was last year.

It's really hard to explain. And I don't know how to. I'm connected to what's going on around me, but I'm not connected with me. Geez...can't explain. It's like I'm living in a whole different universe. Everything seems to be the same, but different...I don't know...I'm grasping at straws.

What I have recognised lately is that I need to get some other areas of my life organised. AW is going back to work on Monday; Phil is starting daycare on Tuesday; and my previous life is about to change, and my future life is about to take a step in a different direction.

Things are busy with Ideal Bodies Online on the personal mentor side of things (which is great), and all of a sudden I'm getting requests for help, advice, coffees, etc, etc. Don't get me wrong - I'm not complaining. I always did say to myself that I needed to give more of myself, and I think this is God's (or the universe, depending on your perspective) way of delivering on my prayers. At first, I didn't think I was really helping anyone, but then I realised that sometimes any type of help, however small can be a big thing in somebody else's eyes. I have come to think that maybe I am making a difference, and that's a good thing.

However, I'm also at the stage where I need to prioritise my life and those things I said I'd cut out, I need to do very soon, and then put in the action to get everything back into balance. I've also had a request from a particular friend (you know who you are) to think about going back to teaching martial arts. Whoa!! That just totally shook my world, and was out of left field. I'd thought about it for some time, over the last number of years, but once I'd finally accepted that the past should be left in the past, and had finally made peace with that part of my life, that I'd neatly folded it up and tucked it away in a safe place...until last week, when my friend propositioned me about this. I never say never, however, there's just so much to consider, and one of those things was about my time and what I wanted to spend it on. It seems that even though I'm starting to give back, I am at a stage where I'm fiercely guarding the time I have to spend on my own fitness and martial arts pursuit. And I want to finish things that I start. So...who knows what the future will bring.

Okay...think my time is up. I want to enjoy the rest of my cuppa and put my feet up before the mad rush to get ready and head out the door. Hope you are all having a fab weekend!